this is the truth and the truth is the love

not officially moved

2010-01-14T17:11:00.002+08:00

My currently blogging at http://nicxletara.tumblr.com

I dont know if this is a blog because I just update my blog anytime even when I'm feeling random. hehe see you there!

And you can formspring me at http://formspring.me/nicoletara
you can ask me anything you wwant without showing ur identity!! lol :)

see you!

2010-01-13T17:46:00.001+08:00

I breathe at here.

sux much

2010-01-13T17:09:00.002+08:00

cbfug my mom is listening to yes933 FM and all the songs are fucking irritating. Cheena songs sux much. They should be inspired by Alicia Keys -try sleeping with a broken heart, if they want to compose a love song. IT's SOOOO IRRITATING WITH THEIR ACT SHARP AND CUTEZZ VOICE. damn my ears.

the sense of foreboding of an impending tragedy

2010-01-13T16:14:00.004+08:00

I cannot be the Nicole/Jy that everyknows until everything is finalised.

I was on the phone with Wanie yesterday, in the wee hours of the morning, discussing about results. I hate it when I know my results could not bring me far. I had experienced this once when I got back my PSLE grade, definitely I did much better for my O's as compared to PSLE. Well, it is still the same when I know people with better grades will get the priority before me. But, why can't I let this thought to stay in my mind throughout the entire O's period? I tend to procrastinate and sometimes, complacency; when I am the stupid kid in class who cannot solve simple maths sums. I am sick. Only until when I have received my notification regarding the course I desperately want, I can feel ease... finally.

I am afraid. I am worried. It's useless for me to pray to my God ceaselessly because my result tells everything about me. I am the one who can change this entire shit in me. As mentioned of this, it will be another alternatives for me.

You may not understand what I blog, but I have to blog to express how I feel right now.

I need my friends, but where are they?
I need them, desperately...

Because they are the ones who understand me the best, other than myself.

thiz iz my dayz

2010-01-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

I took bus 190 to my work place today and I paid by coins because my card values are running low. The bus drivers insisted me to show him my student pass to him, or else he won't let me in. I had to dig my bag for my card and the passengers on board were staring at me. Finally, after all the hassle, I showed him my student pass by waving to him profusely, he believed me and I paid him 55 cents exact. fuck much. DO I LOOK SO OLD?

The bus I took is the newer version one which I have no idea where are those signaling bells for me to press when I had to alight. So, I went to search the bells around and pretend to be a foreigner, since many people thought that I'm Japanese at my work place(don't spam my blog because of this), and eventually, I pressed the wrong bell- handicap's one. cb once the bus driver heard the bell sounded different from the other 'ordinary' bell, he turned to look at the handicap area and glared at me. HOW THE FUCK I KNOW THERE WILL BE DIFFERENCES FOR THE NORMAL HUMAN BEINGS' BELLS AND THE HANDICAPS' BELLS. I was so fucking embarassed that time, I pretended to call someone on the phone and spoke in Japanese- since I can speak a lil of Jap now... haiyoooooo.

Then, when I reached my work place, someone took my locker number 1. D: When I started working, my boss said I looked too pale and insisted me to leave. OMIGOSH I TOOK BUS TO HERE AND THEY WANTED ME TO LEAVE? ok nvm so I left and my colleagues miss me a lot. Hee... So after which, I went shopping alone and I bought my sis a bandage skirt at TOPSHOP AND YESSS SHE LOVES IT HEHEH I LOVE HER TOOO MUCH LIAOZ . Left topshop and I bought my new year jeans which I love it ttm but it's cheap, like who cares? LOl

After shopping, dad fetched me from town and drove me home. Me is a happy kid. SO basically this is my day and my english sux here. BUT HEY MIND YOU I've got (inserts grade) for my English for O's. LOL action aku ok bye bye my dad wants me to hit the shower now baixz

SFLR

2010-01-10T15:16:00.002+08:00

I'm feeling a lil better now and tadaaaa, I will reply all my tags okie?

guest: I do agree with you that my mom looks
more like my sis, but many would say we looked more alike. :)

yink: I MISS YOU A LOT, YINKY~~ ^^

athirah: yes, tomorrow will be the day. :s

FreaKky: Is it because of her sexaye braces?
Hahaha.

joanne: Hehehe I will link you joanney!

sickening ttm

2010-01-10T14:39:00.002+08:00

As mentioned on my previous post, I am sick. These medicines cost my parents $112, not $102 because I've got to go back to the clinic for another round of check-up at night! URGHH! Instead of making me feel better, I'm feeling even worst! Although my fever subsided to 36.9 degree celcius, I'm still having headache and feeling giddy. The tablets are HUGE for me to swallow and the lozenges did not make my throat better but creating more flam... D:

My medical leave is due today and supposingly, I've to go for work. But looking at my current sickening condition, where can I get the energy to serve those nasty and picky customers who have countless of requests for just a bowl of ramen? I guess I will prolly faint in front of them after they have made up their decisions. :)

Lastly, I will be in school tomorrow at this time. I will cry upon disappointment till both my eyes turn swollen. bye bye

39.9 degree celcius

2010-01-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

I was down with fever yesterday and my body temperature was 39.9 degree celcius. I'm still feeling unstable even though I'm blogging now. Sick ttm.

I have to force myself for work tomorrow because I'm on off on monday, which isn't a great thing because this is the day where I will be getting my O's results.

I'm seriously worried. I foresee myself crying in the hall badly due to my atrocious results. You may think that I'm too stressful for my outcome but this is going to be the fact. It's useless even if I pray to my god ceaselessly because my results have already stated on the result slip and it's on its way to school.

D:

Nothing matters when I'm with them

2010-01-03T23:54:00.004+08:00

I treated my mom and sis dinner at my work place, and I had a great time with them and my colleagues. My managers were surprised to see me when I am on off and I was seriously touched when my Jap chief chef prepared a dish for my family and I for free. It's not because it's free and hence I am touched, it's because the thoughts that count. Other than this, my managers came to me and had a short yet cute conversation with me while waiting for the dishes to be served. Omigosh, this makes me feel more glad to be part of Ippudo despite the unhappiness which gives me hell at times. My other colleagues also provided me extra service - gave me EXTRAAA negi toppings for my mom when I requested. HEHEHE

And so, this is yours truly work place!

I forgot to take a pic of my ramen until when I finished it. -.-

ONAGA SUITA ne hehe :P

This is the dish which my Jap chief chef SPECIALLY prepared for us! AWWWW~ but I have no idea what's this called. :)

my favourite PORK BUN! very tk halal lol

watashi no anega and okasan!

After Karen san took this pic for us, someone broke a glass. :s

And so, I spent $X00 + for today and it's really worthy. Because I had a fabulous time with my mom and sis and seriously, nothing matters when I'm with them.

Finally, I've got myself a new wallet, after using the same white Roxy wallet until it turned black for 3 years, and also other stuffs. My mom wants me to WORK hard after today. Get what I mean? hahaha

Love them ttm! And of course, not forgetting my lil sis and my dearest PAPA! ^^

The rest of the photos I've uploaded on Facebook! ^^

2010's resolutions

2010-01-01T13:57:00.003+08:00

SLIM DOWN
175cm please!!!!?
Tolerance and Endurance are the key to success!
QUIT PROCRASTINATION (MUST!!!!)
Buy XXXXXX by my own capability
Be a filial daughter
Love and dote my sistersss more, esp my dearest SY
Stop online shopping, buy in reality HAHAHAHA
Visit BKK and Perth
Architecture course @ SP

Actually, this is just a draft...
I will not post all of my 2010's resolutions on my blog, but I
really hope no.10 will come true. (cross-finger)

BARBIE POLAROID

2009-12-31T01:36:00.000+08:00

Barbie Polaroid @ $160

Mail to mystic-missy@hotmail.com for any enquires, or leave a comment on my tagboard.
Please do click the link under my profile's introduction as well for clothes.

Canon 500D

2009-12-27T23:10:00.003+08:00

0:09 sec, Canon 500D.

I own this now and I feel so great that Avril Lavigne is holding this model in the commercial. I seriously hate it when people said "Why Canon? Nikon is so much better..." I seriously cannot withstand all this shit because my dad bought Canon 500D as my 16th birthday present and he spent over 1.6k for this! How many dads on earth will treat their daughters like this? (And that's the reasons why I real put in all of my efforts for O's) Also FYI, more people own Nikon instead of Canon because Canon has a higher value instead of Nikon. All of the photographers who came to my work place for photoshoot are using Canon instead of Nikon, so what does this show?

So please shut up and stop discriminating my DSLR. (I see red when I'm blogging this right now)

And lastly, SYLVIA IS NOT THE SINGAPORE IDOL AND I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL! OBVIOUSLY SYLVIA HAS GOT A BETTER AND GREAT VOICE!

I realised the winner for these idol's competitions will definitely goes to men instead of women. Fuck up ttm. Ever since the first Singapore Idol, the championship goes to Taufiq, then followed by Hadi. But I have no comments for them because they indeed sound great and they looked awesome. ^^ Heee. But Sezairi ...? My family supported Sylvia but yeaa... I think this kind of competition should restrict females from joining, because after all, female will definitely lose out. Mcm sexist and biased leh. *Disgusted* Ohh, SYLVIA LOOKED SO GORGEOUS IN THE WHITE GOWN SHE WORN DURING THE FINAL COMPETITION!

Lethargic jellyfish

2009-12-27T19:27:00.004+08:00

I love Anna Kendrick.

I didn't turn up for work today because I am simply too exhausted to leave my bed. I want to catch The princess and The Frog but my scheduel tells me there will be a least possibility that I am able to catch that. 4 more days to 2010 and I have got to write my new year's resolutions and keep it tight!

2009 sux ttm!

4 more days to 2010... O's result is releasing soon.

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Buy my barbie polaroid @ $160? Please?

And this brand new military bodycon @ $25 please?

Tag on my tagboard if interested. Please also click the link under my introduction to rescue yours truly. Sayonara!

FML

2009-12-27T02:15:00.003+08:00

I need a nose job and hour glass figue! Harharhar!

I wonder if my blog is still alive or have been RIP ever since I last blogged. It's getting mundane and dead...

I am on off today and I did not spend my time and money wisely. I am sick of being ranted by customers just because they are extremely impatient to get their seats. Also, I am lacking of sleep everyday and have been working up to 13 hours a day which makes me turn into bonkers at times. However, everything paid off when I've got that lovely cheque on my hand... Well, I've got to keep it tight because I just have an apple of my eye. ^^

It is the basic respect for boys NOT to cross beyond certain lines towards girls.

I didn't realise today's 24th dec

2009-12-24T00:57:00.004+08:00

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I'll not give it to anyone

SINFUL

2009-12-21T23:46:00.004+08:00

Always, without fail, I will ask for extra whipped cream for my drinks @ Starbucks despite being sinful to body because it's extremely fattening.

I'm on off today and hence, shopped @ Town with mom and sis. Kieyna and I saw each other @ TOPSHOP Ion and how can I not be elated ever since I have started missing all of my schoolmates so badly. Mom bought sis a bodycon dress @ TOPSHOP, and then chilled @ Starbucks which was what I enjoyed the most today. I bought a pair of booties, which I seriously love it ttm, @ FEP and saw Valerie's sis when heading to TANGS. Brought my mom and sis to my work place and talked to my Japanese GM in Japanese which attracted unwanted attention by those customers who queued outside of the restaurant. Headed to 313 Somerset and saw Kysha BFF serving customers with food. I wanted to call her initially but my mom didn't want me to interrupt her at work. Therefore, we left and dad drove us to Chinatown for dinner and home sweet home soon after.

Today is a very sinful ttm day for me because I have ate a lot of junks because they tasted too delicious and I hardly got to eat them as I'm working all day long which is very impossible to treat myself with those junks!

I am seriously nervous for my O's results as the day of result collection is getting nearer and even nearer each day.

anxiety

2009-12-19T21:59:00.004+08:00

Congratulations to all of my 4N friends who have successfully promoted to Secondary 5. Yes, indeed, most of you will get the priviledge to study in an air-conditioned room which provides all a better environment to focus. Work hard for O's and enter to a dream institution of yours in year 2011.

After receiving all of my friends' messages after my work ended, I was so elated till the extent that I nearly cried for them due to overjoy. I was happy for them because I knew they have been working really hard and I swear I have never seen them holding books most of the time before N's where ever they went. Hee, mature enough to know what they want for their future already. Love all of them ttm!

AND THIS MADE ME WORRY FOR MY O'S RESULTS. 3 MORE WEEKS TO D-DAY.
I AM AFRAID TTM!

FATSHION

2009-12-19T17:57:00.003+08:00

I was inspired by her for prom, but instead of looking nice, I was the joke of the night.

I know where to get the tank from, but my heart will ache if I buy that.

I have the exact jeans like hers, but I fail to bring out the sense of fashion even if I dress like her.

I want to have her perfect figure but obviously, I am just dreaming.

I love her overall, because she does not have abs like me.

WHY AM I SO FAT LIKE AN ELEPHANT?

envy

2009-12-18T01:42:00.003+08:00

Hello.

My blog is really dead at this point of time because of my work and I've no pictures to update on my blog either. I'm fine with my work but most of my closest work friends had left and I am seriously bored without their crazzzy and irritating jokes. Well, I can still survive very well independently because I don't rely on someone for a living, other than my family. My job has seriously turned me into a ChinJap because I said 'excuse me' in Japanese instead of English when someone is blocking my way in the train. I was utterly amused by my confusion due to this. Also, I lost my locker key on the day before yesterday and this was the second time I had repeated my carelessness. I was seriously lucky for the first time because my GM found my key but not the second time. Sigh, and this cost me $10. Gotta learn from mistakes, nicole chan! D:

Lastly, I seriously envy girls with gorgeous looks and pretty hairstyle because they can take pictures of themselves without having anyone's discriminations but positive comments. Unlike muah, I believe anonymouses or friends will comment sth like, 'waalau so ugly still upload on ur blog. $%!@&%' when they view my blog. Gahh, that's part of the reasons why I feel a little insecure with my tagboard on my blog even though I cannot come to cyberworld so often like how I used to, and ensure no spams allowed. Hahaha

Alright, I'm working tomorrow... f-ing 13 hours and need ample rest. And I've got a biatch to give me a morning call.

P/S BFF's texts made my day and my momentum was high to the extreme. Gonna Marché with her sooooon!

P/S/S I have deleted Kysha's blog a few daysss ago. She might recreate a
blog if she's got the chance.

summarising

2009-12-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

Work for 13 hours a day with effect from tomorrow (seriously)
I hope I can request for an off next monday
I am not going to celebrate Christmas because I have no one to celebrate with
I want to meet SHARIFFA SITI NUR ASHIKIN asap
I miss my ex-bff from Korea and this is not a joke
I want to chat with PIKUUU soon @ cyberworld

tragedy

2009-12-14T21:29:00.001+08:00

I am currently blogging with my sis's N97 mini which brings wonder and kill my boredom. I am attending one of my relatives' funeral, thus took early leave for work. I've got to work 13 hours tomorrow and hopefully I would not feel exhausted during work. GANBATTE NEH Nicole!

Breathe

2009-12-11T22:52:00.004+08:00

And fug it ttm, I should have bought that top earlier on! Shit happens!

I will be working 13 hours a day with effects from tomorrow
I have been selected to be a hostess, and thus, need to maximise my Japanese vocabulary in order to communicate and interact with the guests
I have been treated unreasonably at times, which totally pissed me off but I have to control myself and keep myself mum because I am just a server!
After all, still, I love my job and the kitchen workers (waalau wey~!)

I spent XX bux to buy my younger sis a Volcom bag but she does not like it at all
I cannot wait to get my pay
I should get myself a wallet because I have not been changing or getting myself a new wallet since secondary 2
I am going to use my capability to get myself a XPXXXX instead of using my dad's money
It's been a year since I go overseas

I love to be Miss Independent
I am very happy with my life right now
I love my family ttm
I miss my cinta kawan(s) ttm
I want to MEET SHARIFFA SITI NUR ASHIKIN soon

And I am glad that she may be going to Thai Thai (which is just right beside the restaurant I am working) at times for some collections.

$AVE THE BROKEEE

2009-12-10T07:53:00.003+08:00

BARBIE POLAROID

I will be selling my Barbie Polaroid if any kind souls who are willing to purchase it at the price of 180 bux. It is not expensive as what you thought alright. I bought it at a higher rate please! Polaroid is already so rare and tough to find these days; furthermore it's a barbie polaroid?

P/S If you are extremely not happy with the price I'm selling or able to find it else where which are much cheaper, buy from the other seller instead. NEVER SPAM MY TAGBOARD WITH YOU CRAPZX!

PALE PINK FLOWER CAMERA

Selling it @ 28 bux.

Used once, perfect condition. Normal films are recommended.

TOPSHOP FLANNEL SHIRT

Selling it @ 55 bux.

U.P. $79.90; extreme perfect condition; fit UK 6-8.

P/S INSTEAD OF BLUE CHECKERED, IT IS IN RED, WHICH IS NICER THAN THE PICTURE SHOWN. sumpah.

FOREVER 21 ACID-WASHED JEANS

Selling it @ 30 bux. (As shown on Abbey!)

U.P $49.90; extreme perfect condition; fit waist 27-29

VINTAGE BLACK SKIRT

Selling it @ 12 bux.

U.P. $24, brand new, fit waist 27-29

FOREVER 21 DRAPE CARDIGAN IN NAVY BLUE

Selling it @ 25 bux.

U.P. $42, extreme perfect condition, free sized

P/S IT'S OVERSIZED AND HAVE BEEN FEATURED ON LOOKBOOK RECENTLY. MINE IS SERIOUSLY NICER THAN THE PICTURE SHOWN.

FOREVER 21 BASIC WHITE TEE

Selling it @ 8 bux.

U.P. $14, extreme perfect condition, S sized

OSF INSPIRED MILITARY SEQUINED BLAZER

Selling it @ 38 bux.

U.P. $49, extreme perfect condition, free sized

BOLT RAGLAN TEE

Selling it @ $16.

Bought it at @23 bux, extreme perfect condition, free sized

M)PHOSIS WHITE FEDORA

Selling it @28 bux. (As seen on MJ)

U.P. 35 bux, brand new, one size fit all

STAR ROMPER

Selling it @ 35 bux.

Bought it @ Haji Lane for more than 50 bux, extreme perfect condition, free sized, adjustable straps

KOREA CHARACTER LONG SLEEVES

Selling it @ 17 bux.

U.P $25, brand new in package, free sized

PLEASE DIRECT TO ALL ENQUIRES AND CONFIRMATIONS TO MYSTIC-MISSY@HOTMAIL.COM OR LEAVE A
TAG WITH YOUR EMAIL ON MY TAGBOARD.

MEET-UP PREFERRED DUE TO MY TIGHT SCHEDULE WHICH IS HARD TO
ARRANGE FOR POSTAGE.

NO SPAMMING OF NONSENSE SHATZ ON MY TAGBOARD UNLESS ENQUIRES
OR COMFIRMATIONS.

WHEN I MEANT MY ITEMS ARE IN EXTREME PERFECT CONDITION, PLEASE
NEVER DOUBT I AM LYING BECAUSE ALL ITEMS ARE INDEED IN EXTREME PERFECT
CONDITION.

LASTLY, I LOVE ALL THE KIND SOULS WHO SUPPORT MY SITE.
:)

ALRIGHT, STILL

2009-12-08T14:49:00.003+08:00

I'm alone, on my own, and that's all I know

I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, but life goes on

I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission

But I'm ready to fly

Replyzation

2009-12-08T14:36:00.002+08:00

din: lol. elaine -.-
ELAINE: lol. Din-.-

lol. din and elaine. -.-

Nadz: Hey Shingzz!
IMY lah sei~ Hope we could talk soon! =)

Hey
boomz! IMYT! Working night shift recently, maaf nvr cakup with u for so long
too! IMY TTM!

din: Hey, i
guess u shld strt drink more milk , and do more jumping. haha. btw, im
salihuddin frm 5n1 , ppl call me din (:

Oh ok,
hello! Haha. I believe if I jump, the earth will
crack!

ELAINE: its not racist, hahaha. not weird not weird.
x)
ELAINE: hi dear Nicole Yeah, missing many of you people. i'm doing fine
but jus very tired ._. how about you? & no worry nicole, you're not weird. I
do communicate to malays and indians more too.

Hahaha, only you can understand me. ILY!!
:)

passer-: I am allright if there is flash or don't have
flash , hmm Idk much abt polariod so it is better w/ a flash?
Definitely with flash! So you can take pictures in
the dark too. And hey, may I know who are you? Are you from my school? 0.0 Just
being curious! :)

M.I.A

2009-12-05T01:02:00.003+08:00

Hello, I am back to cyberworld for only awhile. :)

I have been working from early morning till evening, and reached home at night time lately. That's explain why I hardly get to online these days due to tiredness.

I'm really proud to be one of the service crews in IPPUDO SINGAPORE at Mandarin Gallery. IPPUDO restaurant has been publised in The Straits Times newspaper recently and we are getting more customers each day. ^^ For those non-halals, please do come down and try out IPPUDO's authentic Japanese ramen, with four unique and delicious varieties which boiled with (inserts secret recipes), by 12 december - OUR OFFICIAL GRAND OPENING!
There are other side dishes to be served as well, and they tasted real GREAT- especially Edamame and Ippudo's pork bun! :D

Ok, enough of advertising. Pardon me if you find out any grammatic mistakes because I'm
blogging this with my eyelids close. TIRED ttm.

Just realised something about me today on my way back home after work.

I don't mingle around with people who are of the same 'groups' with me but the others
instead. I have no idea how to put in words. Hmmm, FOR EXAMPLES...

I hang out with Malays more than my own race (not being racist please)
I communicate more with the kitchen staffs instead of service crews (I'm
alright with both but closer with kitchen staffs instead)
I am always stick with my original classes more than my own (I
don't wish to elaborate much of this because I'm sick of being SPAM)

I have no idea why am I so... weird?

Oh last but not least before I turn in, there are quite a number of customers mistaken me as a Japanese waitress because of my Japanese accent and appearance. Alright, extreme thick skin to blog about this(that's why Kysha named me as 'Ellaphant's skin') because I know I don't look like one of them but instead, my
everything sux ttm.

Byebye me wants go slpzxz liaozxz!

P/S KYSHA, I HOPE YOU'LL BE FINE. I'M MISSING YOU AND I
SERIOUSLY HOPE I CAN HAVE A DAY OUT WITH YOU. I HOPE YOU STILL REMEMBER ME, AS YOUR CASUAL FRIEND. TAKE CARE luv.

Replyzz

2009-12-05T00:56:00.003+08:00

passer -: Where u brought the polaroid ? I wan to hav a white polaroid , do you have any idea where can i purchase it ?

Hello, I bought it online but the website isn't selling polaroids anymore. I guess I know what kind of model you want. The white polaroid without an in-built flash, am I right? :)

88: u so skinny not fat

Sigh, I am. Because I've been wearing baggy clothes which hide my fats. :s

din: hey, i tot u're alredy kinda tall, u look like a model , seriously

Hello, but I really wish to grow taller... At least 175cm? HAHAHA, and NO! I don't look like a model, seriously. Lol Anyway, may I know who are you? Thanks :)

athirah: hahaha, her voice sexier than shoe-ga. :p

Lol, shoe-ga must be really glad if we MENTIONED(enhancing the past tense) about her being sexy AT TIMES. Haha

LO▲E

2009-12-01T23:10:00.002+08:00

She has really caught my attention ever since the first few seconds of 'Radit dan Jani'. She is way too pretty and beautiful to even think of words to describe.

She is tall

She is hot

She is sexy

After watching that movie(hey aku faham okay, don't understimate me!), I cried very badly because of the ending and I was also touched by Radit in the movie. Even though he was not an appropriate man to fall in love with initially, but after Jani was pregnant, he started to change himself for the better and even did ANYTHING for her and the baby. Sweet TTM!

Also, after watching this movie, I decided not to sell my Barbie polaroid.

I miss taking polaroid pictures with him!

I miss the time when we wasted more than 5 polaroid films because of the bad outcomes.

I want to GROW TALLER, as tall as 179cm like Fahrani.
I want to LOSE WEIGHT, less than 55kg like Fahrani.
I LOVE FAHRANI!

NICOLE IS SHORT AND FAT. sedih ttm!
(tk lesbo alright, it's idolizing!)

PICNIC

2009-11-30T21:32:00.004+08:00

(Siti and I LURVVE to imitate derhhzh minahz and ahlianzx)

Met my dearest girlfriends today for a picnic at Marina Barrage today(like so finally) and I had enjoyed myself to the extreme, even though I dozed off when Duee and Freak were learning to play guitar from Kacang. I was too exhausted due to work and lacked of sleep lately.

I am seriously sorry for not uploading ALL the photos onto my sites because I'm too lethargic and lazy to do so.

Things-to-do list!

2009-11-28T02:06:00.003+08:00

Picnic with ♥kawans on Monday @ Marina Barrage
(No uninvited guests are allowed)
Time is the best medicine to heal myself
Be a workaholic throughout this December holidays in order to earn more ka-chingz
Lee's family outing after YX's A's ends
ATTEND MY DADDY'S FRIEND PHOTOGRAPHY LESSON
Learn a few guitar covers
Finish reading my storybookz
Learn Jap langauge (screams)
Save up and use the amount of ka-chingz to get myself a X with my own capabilities without asking my daddy for help. (MUST!)
Lose weight
NO MORE X
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R♥NDU

2009-11-28T01:24:00.003+08:00

I have been using these pictures instead of the others when I want to blog about my dearest kawan, Kysha, because these pictures have given us a deepest and fonding memory of the time we spent and shared between us. I have not got a chance to meet her personally and have a girl's day out, where we can blabber non-stop for the entire day and snap ridiculous pictures, because both of us are busy working to earn a living for ourselves. ^^ Neither can I text her nor she replies my text prolly because of prepaid balance? Owell, I miss her ttm.

The reasons why I would consider her as my BFF, although I do not really believe in having BFF but closest friends instead, because she is the one who will give in and try her best to settle conflicts in a nicest way if we quarrelled. She loves PEACE, because she doesn't want any conflicts to mess up her life, or else... This was I noticed when I knew her for the past two years. And that's only thing I know about her.

How would you feel if you are struggling for your O's, yet no one knows about it and asks about the current situations which you are facing in life? Kysha did the sweetest thing to me by texting me in the middle of late night and I was so touched by simply reading her messages even though it was short and simple. This is what I called 'Friends'. Not those who will just add more burdens to you and talk about you behind your back with the others, mentioning your weaknesses and looking more of your negative sides. Discriminating and condemning in a huge crowd with no appropriate reasons. Then, put you in the 'limelight' and start to humiliate you in any ways.

Dearest Kysha,

You know my problems and you know muah well. I am not a really good friend of yours whom you can share your secrets or problems with, but, I can rest assure you that I will definitely give you my best when you are in need(s). You are the nicest friend I have ever met. I mean, seriously.

Other than Kysha, I have met a few kind and understanding souls in class too. Not forgetting moon and freakkie!

Thanks for tolerating my shatz since 2008 and considering me as a 'chinlay'- PIKUU!

♥♥♥

Replyz

2009-11-27T20:49:00.003+08:00

athirah: OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that video is so embarassing! my hair, OMG!
You looked comel laa. I hate my bangz too. Sux ttm!

munira: haha, thinking of yeww makes me sad:( lolx, i mean the song not yeww. haha! js jk laa IMY!!
Hahaha! I'll spank you if thinking of me makes me sad! LOL IMYT!

Nadz: Wah! PS eh. U put that reaking vid. Shingzzzz much! hahax...
Yes. We looked bad. But that video filled with tons of memories love.

FreaKky: omg!! i miss us taking random vids in cls..XDD haiss eh our hair last time look the same sia pikuu....^_^ LOL
HAHAHA that's why people keep saying that we are twins! LOL. I can still remember the time when we came to school with our trimmed bangs without telling each other beforehand and both of us were shocked when we saw each other! HAHAHA!

thevishree: HELLOO MMOOOOO
HELLO!

munira.: I miss all of yeww n sch D:
HAHAHA chill laa mun. This is life!

guest: chill, me too , my dumbass thumb malfunctioned & all those memories with my classmates vanished just like tht
Yes. It's somehow working now and I'm actually updating this post with my lappy. Saving all the picts to my thumbdrives now before I send it for repair. Thanks!

Shoe-ga: nicole!!!! Imy sia.... hahahahah.
Come back to SINGAPORE soon! I MISS YOU SHOE-GA!

athirah: hey, chill kay. don't be sad. cheer up! >.<
Hmmm, deleted the post already. So don't mention anymore. Heehee...

Thinking of you

2009-11-26T22:36:00.002+08:00

I have no idea why but I have been listening to Officially Missing You by Tamia and Thinking Of You by Katy Perry. I am seriously falling in love with the lyrics since ages.

Can anybody teach me the guitar cover for these two songs? Because I am sick and tired of playing Thunder.

Officially missing you

2009-11-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

2009-11-25T22:41:00.002+08:00

I miss them ttm

Fuckabulous day

2009-11-25T21:11:00.002+08:00

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?

MY LAPPY IS DOWN and I CANNOT TURN IT ON AT ALL! My dad wants to send it for repair BUT ALL MY MEMORIES ARE STORED IN MY LAPPY WITHOUT SAVING IT INTO MY THUMBDRIVE BEFOREHAND! WHICH ALSO MEANS, IF I SEND IT FOR REPAIR, I WILL LOST ALL MY LOVELY MEMORIES AND I SWEAR MY TEARS WILL FLOW LIKE WATER FOUNTAIN.

Imagine me losing ALL my AUSSIE pictures
Imagine me losing ALL my BEIJING pictures
Imagine me losing ALL my school events pictures
Imagine me losing ALL my cinta kawans picures
Imagine me losing ALL my 26th photos

AHHHHHHHH AAAHHHHHHHHHH AAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Aku sedih ttm.

APPRECIATION

2009-11-25T21:03:00.000+08:00

Hi

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ALSO, PLEASE CLICK ON MY NUFFNANG ADV!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, THANK YOU TO ALL THE KIND SOULS!

REGARDS
Nicole

Truth

2009-11-25T20:55:00.004+08:00

THE PEOPLE THAT YOU CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT,
CAN LIVE WITHOUT YOU...

HAPPILY.

26th love avenue

2009-11-23T19:18:00.001+08:00

All at once I had it all
but it doesn’t mean anything now that you’re gone from above, seems I had it all 
but it doesn’t mean anything 
since you’re gone

I know I pushed you away
what can I do that would save our lovetake these material things
they don't mean nothing
its you that I want

♥

2009-11-23T18:47:00.002+08:00

Can I be the girl that you met in the coin laundry?

Adv and Aid 2

2009-11-23T18:42:00.002+08:00

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Lastly, please continue to click on my Nuffnang Adv whenever you visit my site. As I mentioned in my previous Adv and Aid post, I will love you aplenty for that.

Thanks to all the kind souls who actually clicked on my Nuffnang Adv. ^^

contented

2009-11-22T19:13:00.002+08:00

If you are wondering what is this, it is a バラ(rose) by Benjamin ん. Hahaha kind enough to fold two origami バラ for me because we were bored during break time. I really love my job a lot even though there was an unpleasant incident happened yesterday. However, it's already the past and it's meaningless to keep remembering about that.

I have been studying Jap language till the extent that I nearly used すみません(excuse me) in the public when someone is blocking my way. Now, I'm trying my best to remember and comprehend Hiragana so I can write and read Jap already! BUT, I may not understand the words I am reading. :)

がんばって! ^^

I LOVE MY JOB A LOT!

P/S I wasn't interested in Jap language initially, but until I got this job, I'm really in love with their language and even culture!

Adv and Aid

2009-11-21T21:38:00.002+08:00

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Childhood

2009-11-21T19:45:00.004+08:00

I really love my childhood a lot. I can't stop laughing when looking at those pictures, then starts to reminisce about the past. I can still remember very clearly that I used to have long hair but due to our naughtiness, our dad cut our hair short because my elder sis and I played with the chewy gums we had just chewed and sticked onto each other's hair. My sis and I were really naughty and irritating when we were younger. And this is also part of the reasons why my parents decided to hire a maid to look after us.

WE used to LOVE POWER RANGERS and NINJA TURTLES ok? HAHAHA.

My sis would pretend to be the yellow ranger, whereas I'm the pink one. Then we tend to let our younger sis to get the 'ugly' colour, which is black(power rangers). My mom would buy the ranger tapes for us to watch too. Oh dear, I think I'm growing older because chewy gums have been banned long ago and people watch DVDs instead of video tapes nowadays.

I miss my childhood a lot; nolstagic.

PS if you notice my hair was short, it was due to the reason stated above.

I have already wore white leggings when I was a child. LOVE it. ^^

this picture and the one below: I love to open my mouth a lot.

I'm so tiny and comel! HAHAHA because Imma cheena.

(Learnt this from tworoseyou)

To Jijie: Well, hahaha WE need more DSLR lessons. hahaha I will teach you if I learn anything new. ^^
To munira.: hahaha which songs? It's shuffled.
To hazzy: why? at least I'm not JUMPER jackson. LOL :)
To freakky: Hahaha terima kasih and welcome! I'm starting to miss you already, pikuu!
To athirah: chill luv. I love you! ^^
To Elaine: But I think I looked weird. Thanks anyway. :D
To Feeqa: Awww, thanks a lot. You looked real great too! ^^
To Weiyu: hahaha, thanks prom queen!

Nicole Jackson - hahahahaha

2009-11-20T01:08:00.004+08:00

All girls looked so elegant and beautiful as they wore an exquisite beautiful gown or dress with make-up and nice hairdo. Whereas, I am the weirdest and ugliest girl who wore a pair of high waisted jeans and followed the theme of MTV spontaneously which probably had became a joke of the night for everyone who attended MTV prom 2009. Besides, I did not have sufficient money to hire a professionist to do my make-up and hair but I had to do it all by myself. I tied my hair like how I did in school and my make-up was utterly atrocious despite using my sis's branded cosmetics; which was totally a waste for me.

Definitely, I was amazed by a few ladies who looked really attractive that night and these were the ladies who caught my attention:

Kysha, Weiyu and Joanne. ^^

It is the not fact that they are my friends and that's the reasons why I find them pretty. It's really because they have transformed themselves into another beauty who I usually do not get to see. No doubt, there were also tons of beautiful ladies that night. And I thought Kysha would be nominated as one of the prom queens but well, there were too many pretty ladies on that night who had seemed to fond of the limelight.

If I knew I would turn myself into a clown, I would rather spend my entire day working than attending prom. Seriously regretted.

Well, last but not least, I did enjoy myself on that night with my original classmates(as what Mr Raja said to me which really touched my heart). :D

I love my school and I think I'm blessing in disguised to enter this school due to my horrendous PSLE grades.

P/S I DOUBT I CAN UPLOAD PHOTOS ON MY FACEBOOK BECAUSE I HAVE TRIED TO UPLOAD 5 PHOTOS BUT FAILED. THE MEMORY SPACE OF THOSE PHOTOS WERE TO HUGE AND IT IS NOT THE FACT THAT I'M TOO LAZY TO UPLOAD.

PLEASE DO NOT RUSH ME FOR THOSE PICTURES AND DO NOT FORGET THAT I AM WORKING EVERYDAY.

I love my work so much! ^^

Nostalgic

2009-11-17T22:41:00.004+08:00

hee, my elder sis and I...
I miss my maid!

When I was young, I have no idea the feeling of stress.

When I was young, I was too naive in terms of my behaviour.

When I was young, I do not know what is the definition of love...

Until now, I have yet to know.

my work can be really easy till the extent that I'm doing this...

I love my job, but I think there is more to come...

As I am working for an authentic Japanese restaurant, many people first thought I am a foreigner or a person who does not know how to speak and understand English by judging my appeareance. When some of service crews heard me speak Mandarin, they assumed that I am a Malaysian. In contrast, when they heard me speak English, they thought I am a girl who belonged to a girl's school. Or even, 2 guys thought I am waiting for my A's or Uni's results. Last but not least, they thought I am once a model, then quitted my job.

How can you really differentiate and create assumptions of one when you do not know about him/her?

FYI, I will never work as a model despite all the calls from anonymous and people insisting me to accept their name cards when walking along Orchard road, claiming that they are from well-known model agency. C'mon, do anyone know what is the basic expectation of being a model for a WELL-KNOWN model agencies, since they proclaimed it.

Height must definitely be 175 or even 180 above.

The models must be in the range of 2-4 size.

So, well-known? Chanel? YSL? Or Alexander Wang?

I can have a photoshoot myself, rather than posing weird poses in front of those PHOTOGRAPHERS, since I own a DSLR my own with skills(my dad is sending me for photography technique lessons soon^^).

Girls who think that they are called to be a model and started to get over-excited about it, double check for your safety before you regret.

It's better to be safe than sorry.

And for Fish, why am I blogging a warning post which is not related to Nostalgic?

Stay strong

2009-11-15T22:39:00.002+08:00

Life is vulnerable and unpredictable.

Although I am just an acquaintance of his, we somewhat knew each other.

Lord will be with him always, may he rest in peace.

My mom isn't really happy with the stuffs I bought for prom, and seriously, I had enough of prom and I am starting to hate it. Spending unnecessary amount of money for only a night event, not worthy at all! I have, or rather MUST, earn back those money I spent.

... I AM WORKING TOMORROW! And this is my very first time working in this society to earn for a living for myself, best of luck to mehh!

YSL

2009-11-14T15:16:00.002+08:00

Perfect. Beautiful. Love.

drugs

2009-11-14T14:02:00.000+08:00

Love the rapping, love the chorus, love it so much

I don't really like this song, but I LOVE THE HEELS!

F.I.R.S.T

2009-11-14T02:29:00.000+08:00

my bff with her unique expression

Okay, boomz back to Blogger again but will be using my previous livejournal account as something else (which I need your supports). I really love my site's name so much, and that's explain why I remained it the same. Oh, and I want to thanks SITI ATHIRAH for the help with most of the shingz on my blog. I spent 3 days to 'customize' my blog; this is how dull and boring my life is after O's.

I didn't expect anything much after O's ended; life just goes on. I used to look forward for my holidays before O's, but now, I have lost the enthusiasm and anticipation. I have been sleeping after 3am lately, and have the urge to read all of my unread storybooks! However, before I can even start flipping my storybook, I've got to tidy up my room with all the sec 3 and 4 notes and textbooks. My mommy has been complaining about the messiness of my room and table, with no other choices to make, I have to clear it up!

I'm chatting with Freakkie now and I'm craving for McDonalds badly.

Last 2 days, when I was chatting with Nadz, I was craving for KACANG PUTEH! And I realised that it's hard to see kacang puteh nowadays because of (inserts joke between Nadz and I). ^^

My lappy has been detected to some viruses lately and my facebook isn't working well. So, pictures from DSLR will be uploaded in a few days time due to problems created by my obsolete lappy.